Fehu Reversed, Kano reversed, Nauthiz
Any thoughts or feelings of scarcity could easily be amplified over the next month. This will be a time of taking in inventory, both of physical possessions and of beliefs. It is time to start being honest with yourself about why you belief what you believe. “Because I always have” or “That’s just what I was taught” isn’t going to work anymore. It may not be easy to do so much internal work during the season that requires the most pleasantries of the year, but it’s going to happen one way or another. So you may as well excuse yourself from the less essential activities, stay in when you aren’t 100% excited about going out, and just remember to give yourself the time as space you need this month.
The biggest person you will be up against is yourself. Emotional reactions may be a bit exaggerated as little things trigger deeper emotions and help draw out things you haven’t thought about in a long long time. It’s not the current situation, but one that had a similar feel. So allow the feelings to happen, and then trace the emotion back to the issue that is ready to be resolved.
This is not a time to be extravagant or prove anything to those around you. It’s best to conserve both physical resources and your energy. The simpler the holiday season, the easier it will be to navigate this time around. There will be better times to go overboard.
Kano reversed, Nauthiz, Thurisa reversed
Before you can move forward it is time to accept your true self.The constraints and problems that you are running into lately are because of inauthentic living. If you are feeling a bit claustrophobic it is because your real purpose is trying desperately to get through to you. The things that are no longer working for you are breaking down completely and unless you stop fighting and accept your true path, you will continue to struggle. If you are on your path, things are a bit lighter but there is still a lot of clearing away to be done. You may have to let go of “how” you will get there and focus on the journey alone. There are old relationships that are not working, mostly because everyone is going through this right now, so consider the other person’s struggle with authenticity is raging as well. It is a time to let people do their own thing while you go and do yours. Don’t feel as though they are ignoring you, it is really about them completing their own struggle. Now more than ever:
“If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be. – Unknown
Hagalz, Wunjo, Nauthiz
The theme for the spring seems to be how we deal with disruptions and plans going awry. Any things are going to be falling apart in many different ways to make way for the new. While you can see intellectually that a clean slate is a great place to grow from, it can be frustrating to deal with the constant redirects and hurdles that are being thrown at us right now. Careful planning right now will not prevent the universe from showing you a new path. So don’t get too attached to your plans, you will get where you are going, there is just a lot of construction going on as you are being constantly rerouted to what will be a better path. The lesson today is to not take it all personally. These detours are not a judgment on you, they are there to serve you, so be thankful that you don’t have to learn everything the hard way.
Sowelu, Nauthiz, Perth reversed
The final phase of wholeness has just completed for many of us. You may have felt a slight shift over the weekend, far in the background. The key now is to accept and forgive the parts of you that you may feel ashamed of. You are whole and perfect even if you can’t see it right now, you will. Let this evolution happen organically and watch as old ways of being simply fall away. Things may feel as though they are going awry, but it is just a period of adjustment as you shift into the new you. They say the definition of insanity if doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result, so you may feel as though you are a little insane, as the results of habitual actions are now going to start changing. This slight feeling of insanity is normal when going through a spiritual shift, so roll with the strange places that your thoughts and feelings go, don’t fight or question it, just be, things will mellow out soon.
Nauthiz, Ehwaz reversed, Jera
It is time to deal with all the rules and regulations set up by you and the others around you. We all have an idea of how things should be, how we should behave, and how we should feel about this or that. The key word is ‘should’. These are expectations and constraints that we place on ourselves or simply accept as true, but it is time to examine the roles these rules play in our lives. If the rules you set for yourself is keeping you back from your growth, it may be time to amend your personal constitution. The challenge will be the feeling that you are not getting anywhere right now, but that is okay, this type of shift takes time, and you will get there by moving steadily forward. Have faith in yourself and the process of self-change, sometimes just being aware and asking the right questions is all you need to start he journey.
It is time to let go. Yes, there are times to hold back and control yourself but maybe you have been holding yourself on too tight of a leash. What good is your restrain doing you when you see the opportunities pass you by because you are stopping yourself from reaching out and taking them? Start you cleansing small, like by cleaning up one area of the house. Once you can let go of one thing, find another that no longer serves you and keep going until you feel your space open up and become lighter. Look to your emotional house too. Are there grudges that you are still holding? Are you still upset with someone for something that happened a long time ago? Let it all go and live in the now. The less of your past that you carry with you the clearer the future becomes. How can you reach for your dream when you are clinging to your fear of repeating past hurts with both hands?
Shame is most often found in the root chakra. The root chakra is where all of our impulses for fighting, eating and sex live. Naturally the things we feel most ashamed of are things like eating too much, being aggressive to people that we should have been kind to, and the mistakes and bad decisions around sex partners. Shame also acts like a bad cold. When one person behaves toward another based on their shame, the damage done to the second can lead to more. It is a nasty cycle, but it can be stopped at any time. We are going to deal with a few different levels of intensity on this topic today.
It is time to let the sun dissolve the clouds that have been hanging over you. The cloud is the shame around how you see the world and the feeling you have. How long have you believed that you were supposed to act and feel certain way because that is what you were told? Those old beliefs cause you to doubt your own feelings and hide your true self. Think back to the times as a kid when you were told how to feel by your church, your parents or the other kids around you. Do those opinions still hold weight now that you are an adult? The most dangerous word in this arena is “should”. The shame of not being worthy comes from believing everything other people told you about yourself instead of what you know to be true about yourself. You know yourself better than anyone, so let the lies go.
Then there are those of us who hold shame in our past behavior. Maybe you used to beat up the other kids in the neighborhood and how you can see the pain you caused. Kids can be very mean in junior high and high school and lash out at others out of fear and their own shame. So if you were one of the mean kids, think back to what you were really feeling when you were name calling. Let the shame that led you to shame others go. Forgive yourself and hopefully the ones you bullied will release the shame they may have picked up from your actions.
Shame also rears its ugly head after we made bad decisions in the romantic arena. Mistakes here easily lead to shame and regret. You may have given in too easily, or you may have pushed someone too far. You may have broken a few hearts that didn’t deserve it, or lashed out after having your own broken. The root of much of this type of shame comes from not communicating what you want and how you feel with the person you are with. Are you really hearing the other person when you spend all your time being afraid to say what you mean? Know that all of your emotions are valid.
And here is where it gets really ugly. Traumatic childhood, abuse, molestation, and rape all cause major amounts of shame to live in not just the root, but often most of the chakras. These cases are a bit more than can be dealt with in just a simple blog, because of the complexity of emotions and the layers of beliefs that are created, but we will touch on the shame aspect. When these things happen, especially at a young age the decision is made that you are deserve this possible because you are evil, unworthy, or unlovable. This type of deep rooted shame lives in the background and throws a taint on the rest of your emotions and you can start to become ashamed of the positive emotions you feel. That you do not deserve to fell joy, love, or hope; that you do not deserve to accept compassion or receive honesty. Reality gets skewed and it is like you like in an emotional bizzaro world. There is a way out, but it takes a time and trust. The keystone is shame that comes from believe that you deserved it. Loosen that and the other emotions can start to heal. Also know that there is someone out there who is willing to listen. Getting the story out and knowing that you are being heard and not judged or blamed releases the hold the memories have on you.