Mannaz, Gebo, Inguz
This is definitely going to be a week a deep introspection for nearly all. The focus of our energy is going to be turned inward, to look back at the paths we have chosen and really see how and when we chose each turn that led us here. This can be a brutal revelation for some, with guilt and anger at some of the choices made. Guilt at realizing how we may have hurt others and the things we did to block ourselves will become abundantly clear the next few days.
Once the full weight of how it all really went down hits, take a deep breath and let it go. It was all part of the process of getting you here. There are some hard and uncomfortable lessons that we need to teach ourselves and some of us are a bit more stubborn than others and need things to be a bit more intense in order to learn. So find what it is you learned, thank yourself for the lesson, and forgive yourself for the extra BS you used to get you here. And then say to yourself “I know how to learn my lessons without causing extra pain and drama”
There will also be a huge desire to get away from others a bit this week, especially with all the old resentments coming up all over the place. Your unwillingness to work things out with others could lead to more hurt feelings, so fight your need to hide yourself away and spend time talking things out with your bestie.
Now that you can see the path behind you clearly- it is time to choose where you will go next. All of the choices ahead of you are yours to make. It can feel a bit scary for some to realize that this life is one we chose and that we get to choose how the rest of the story goes. Now it the best time to change your direction and put yourself on a path more in line with what you really want. Or just to make a few simple adjustments to refine your path. It is with a full understanding of your past that you can remake your future.
Algiz, Mannaz, Wunjo
Hello boundary issues! If you haven’t already been actively working on creating safe boundaries for yourself (and the benefit of those around you) then your buttons are going to be pushed a bit today. If you have good boundaries or have been actively working on them, they will be tested a bit. This is just a check as most of us really need some time to ourselves right no.
In fact, the other challenge facing all you is the lack of acceptance of your own innocence. For many the attitude looks likes “waiting for the other shoe to drop” or “it can’t be that easy”. Quit creating more shoes and yes, it is possible for life to blessed and easy. It starts with you accepting that is possible for you good and innocent. You may call it being jaded or realistic, throwing extra guilt on yourself for things you haven’t done yet creates openings in your energy and you guessed it, motivates others to push your boundaries. But if you keep calling punishment down on yourself, the universe will provide it.
A quiet mediation is defiantly called for today, and again tomorrow. It is a time to focus on training your body to know what it feels like to have serenity and joy in your life. From there reconnect with your youngest memory of yourself, feel how free and safe you felt then. If, those feelings were not present for you at that time, give them to that version of yourself. Let that version of you know what it feels like to not need forgiveness.
Ansuz, Mannaz, Uruz reversed
There is a message waiting for you you but it will be coming through a source you least expect. Pay attention to what others have to say to you and about you. There is some truth to the rumors and especially pay attention to what makes you annoyed. You can say “Oh, it is just their issue projecting on me”. But why does it annoy you if there isn’t a part of you that believes it? I am not saying that everything they say is true, just be open to hearing what they have to say and acknowledging that maybe there are things you still need to let go of. Now is not a time to show your strength and brush off negative comments. The message is one of unacknowledged guilt and playing innocent with yourself will only make it harder to move on. It is time to take stock of your vulnerabilities and be grateful for the things you have learned from them and stop beating yourself up for not always being perfect.
Algiz reversed, Mannaz, Fehu reversed
It is spring cleaning time again. Since Sunday most of us have been naturally dropping things that no longer work, but it is time to amplify the energy by physically moving objects out of your space. Physical objects hold a lot of energy and if it reminds you of a time when you were not at your best, it should be sent on its way. Every thing you look at in your home should serve a purpose. Either as just its function or to inspire, challenge, or remind you of joy.
Also be honest with yourself about the company you keep. They say that if you are the smartest person in the room, you are in the wrong room. How many of your friends and close associates are people you aspire to be like? Are there any people that you feel you need to apologize for? The signals right now around these issues are ringing louder than they have before. Interactions that are natural and energizing are moving you in the right direction, spend more time with those people. If you are feeling weighed down or are struggling to be understood when you interact with someone, they may no longer be at the same vibration as you. It is time to walk away and reset your boundaries. There is nothing preventing open communication right now outside of who you are being and who the other person is being. If you are both being true to your higher selves, there is no need to repeat, rephrase, and try to force the conversation. If you are taking care of your needs for yourself, your relationships with be based on what you want in life.
Mannaz, a very good place to start
Some writing teachers say to always start your story at a place of innocence. Make your characters like able so the reader will care about what happens to them and can cheers for them when they are down. It also give the characters the ability to surprise you.
It it time to see yourself in a place of innocence. Go back to a time when the world was perfect for you, before you starting fighting with your siblings or got picked on by older kids or had someone betray you. Your body knows what it feels like to be innocent, no matter what you have been through or what you done to other people. There is still a part of you that is pure, and today is the day to get in touch with it. The importance is this: when you are in the serenity of innocence, time is not a factor. You are not worried about what she did or said in the past. You are not thinking of what he will say or do when you see him next. The feeling of innocence is the feeling of now, of being in the moment. It is being present with the rustling of the leaves and the traffic and not consumed with what ifs. Yes, we are grown up now, and there are things that need to be taken tare of and dealt with. But how much time to you spend worrying about the situation versus the amount of time it takes to actually deal with the issue? Innocence is living in the moment with the knowledge that everything will be taken care of. Just becasue you are the one taking care of things does not mean you have to sacrifice that freedom.
The point is: we had to learn that a+b=c. It is important for survival to know some how to interact with the physical world and the practicalities of being a physical being. But it doesn’t apply to human interactions the same way. Yes, so maybe the last time you dated someone with dark hair it turned out badly, but that doesn’t mean that every tall dark haired man will treat you badly. It was just that one. So the same conclusions that we draw about the physical world don’t always apply. Going into an interaction thinking that he is going do this because this other person did this takes the truth and freedom out of your current relationship. How much joy are you missing because you assume that someone is going to react in a certain way? But what if that person has reacted that way before? Shouldn’t you always expect them to react that way again? Yes and no. Have you evolved? Maybe that person has to. We are all vibrant living, growing and changing beings, each at our own pace. It is hardest to see the changes in the people closest to you because what we see when you are with them is the memory and program of who they are. It is like viewing a Yahoo off line. Yes the information is true and it was true yesterday, but it is out of date and may not be the current truth. If you view someone from a place of innocence, you are seeing them as they are now. They may surprise you, if you let them. Or they may just follow the same pattern. But you taken away their abiality to express the changes if you have it set in your head that there is only one correct way for them to react.
My Mom called the other day with a lead on another ghost. Her hairdresser’s dog Barkley had been getting very agitated at something in the house. It was not every day and they checked for animals or anything else that could be unsettling him. The lady said that if it was indeed a ghost, he was welcome there as long as he stopped upsetting the dog. I took a look around and sure enough, it was a wandering spirit who called himself Harold. He had been a traveling salesman and liked to check in on some of the spot along his old route. He had a few places in the area he liked to visit, but never with any ill will to the humans there. Harold never did like dogs. He eventually agreed to stop irritating Barkley and we left it at that.
But it reminded me of another ghost that I had worked with about a year ago. A friend in Arizona told me about a part of her property that her dogs avoided, as did she but was not sure why. I found a woman buried there in an unmarked grave. She was terrified to leave because if she did, he could be waiting. Years had passed since her death and she was still afraid of her husband. He was controlling, jealous, and abusive. They lived outside of town on a secluded ranch with just a few hands to help with the work. She had left her family behind to be with him, as he was, of course, charming at first. She was at first devoted to him, first out of love and then out of fear. He accused her of making eyes at every man he saw near her.
He was convinced that he could never have children. When she got pregnant he assumed that it was someone else’s child. Between her religious convictions and fear of him, she never would have done such a thing. I worked with her for a while, but there was another soul that wanted to chime in.
I was approached by a very large and sad dog. He was very good at keeping the ranch safe and chasing away the other animals and had obeyed every command his master gave him. Even the night master got him would up and excited and had him attack someone. They walked into the field where someone was crying. The name and the woman started arguing. Master gave the command to attack and he did. The master buried the nice lady and told everyone that she had gone back to see her family for a while. The dog’s guilt for killing the lady kept him there.
The lady knew it wasn’t the dog’s fault and she finally had the opportunity to tell him. A few wags of his tail and he left for good. The lady left a little while later, once she knew that her husband could no longer harm her.