On a personal note, a bit about how last year changed me

Has everyone recovered from New Years’ Eve? Now that the crazy holiday season and the end of the Mayan calendar shift have passed, we are at a place of now what? Now we start on a new journey. 2012 was all about letting go. Letting go of jobs, relationships, old ways of thinking, bad memories, etc. I let go of the theatre company I started in my backyard, the job I had for over six years, and my home. Starting over in a new city and a growing group of new friends I am learning to be okay with non-activity, silence, and empty space. My life before Oakland was always busy; it took a full year to slow down enough to get to a space where I could write again. Until the start of 2012 I had full time job and a theatre company that took up every second of my free time. I even dreamed about the shows we did. It was wonderfully creative and rewarding but it kept me from attaining the goals I had set for myself when I moved to San Diego, to be a full time energy healer. Add painting and volunteer work on top of that and I had no room left in my schedule to really to the work necessary for my spiritual development.
So after the valentines’ day show I stopped doing anything except board meetings. I built a meditation room in my house, the garage got cleaned up and I almost started painting again. I also sold my car, a great relief because I was always on call to fix lights and things down at the church, as a volunteer. It felt weird at first but it was a very growing experience to step away and let people handle their own problems, or walk them through it on the phone instead of rushing over to push the button or flip a switch. Little by little I worked on clearing away everything that did not belong and though long and hard about my next move, I knew that I had learned everything that I had come to San Diego to learn.
I knew from the moment I first saw the city from BART that the Bay Area is where my next stage of development would happen. And a lot has happened so far. The move cost me a job that I loved but that took all my energy. It was not the greatest in the world and honestly I was using it as a crutch to not try on build my energy healing practice. It was easy to not work to find new clients because I was making good money and living comfortably. So now, I have a quite warehouse with lots of room to paint and create, no more rushing around, and the ability to create a new future. The practice is growing slowly, on new client at a time, but the more I learn to share myself, the faster it will grow. So there will be more posts about my journey, my dreams and the things I have seen. Cheers.

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