It is time to trust. This can be a hard thing for some, as fear of not receiving your due immediately chases away your trust in the situation. Put aside the fear and know that the situation will turn out in your favor as long as you hold on to trust in the divine. If you are unable to trust, take a deep look at what caused you to lose your faith. It can be restored or created from scratch if need be. It is a double edged sword because trusting means letting go of control, and that can cause a new crop of fear to appear. It can be built slowly, start with trusting one person or thing, and the next one will come easier.
This reading is not for everyone. *
Knight of cups, Cthulhu, five of swords Secrets of the Necronomicon
The single minded determination to reach your goals could be taken taken as passion, if it was not at the expense of others. As you go thorough your day, who are you ignoring or not allowing to succeed? Is is because you “don’t have time” for other people or would someone else success somehow diminish yours? It is time to rebel against your need to dominate everyone around you. We can all be guilty of pride and arrogance at times, but for some of you it is about to come crashing down. Either come to terms with the role of others in your life and in your success or the truth that you have been hiding will be exposed and no amount of verbal puppetry will pull the wool over anyone’s eyes.
*Seriously, I didn’t like it when it showed up with my dragon deck, so I went to the Necronomicon and pulled the same cards. So there you have it.
🙂 Usually with something this harsh I am sitting facing the person.
What was it that you could have said? There are relationships that have suffered because you did not say the right thing at the right time and now the guilt is bearing down on you. Also consider that maybe it was best not to have been said. But if it still need to be voiced, there is still time. But first you must forgive yourself for letting the opportunity pass you by. If that person is no longer among the living, they will still get the message. If you are not longer speaking and they won’t return your calls, write it in a letter and set it on fire. Otherwise, it is time to pick up the phone and clear up the past.
My Mom called the other day with a lead on another ghost. Her hairdresser’s dog Barkley had been getting very agitated at something in the house. It was not every day and they checked for animals or anything else that could be unsettling him. The lady said that if it was indeed a ghost, he was welcome there as long as he stopped upsetting the dog. I took a look around and sure enough, it was a wandering spirit who called himself Harold. He had been a traveling salesman and liked to check in on some of the spot along his old route. He had a few places in the area he liked to visit, but never with any ill will to the humans there. Harold never did like dogs. He eventually agreed to stop irritating Barkley and we left it at that.
But it reminded me of another ghost that I had worked with about a year ago. A friend in Arizona told me about a part of her property that her dogs avoided, as did she but was not sure why. I found a woman buried there in an unmarked grave. She was terrified to leave because if she did, he could be waiting. Years had passed since her death and she was still afraid of her husband. He was controlling, jealous, and abusive. They lived outside of town on a secluded ranch with just a few hands to help with the work. She had left her family behind to be with him, as he was, of course, charming at first. She was at first devoted to him, first out of love and then out of fear. He accused her of making eyes at every man he saw near her.
He was convinced that he could never have children. When she got pregnant he assumed that it was someone else’s child. Between her religious convictions and fear of him, she never would have done such a thing. I worked with her for a while, but there was another soul that wanted to chime in.
I was approached by a very large and sad dog. He was very good at keeping the ranch safe and chasing away the other animals and had obeyed every command his master gave him. Even the night master got him would up and excited and had him attack someone. They walked into the field where someone was crying. The name and the woman started arguing. Master gave the command to attack and he did. The master buried the nice lady and told everyone that she had gone back to see her family for a while. The dog’s guilt for killing the lady kept him there.
The lady knew it wasn’t the dog’s fault and she finally had the opportunity to tell him. A few wags of his tail and he left for good. The lady left a little while later, once she knew that her husband could no longer harm her.
One way to protect yourself is to build imaginary boundaries. Walls that keep the pain and joy of an intimate relationship for away. Yes, there are people in your life, but how often to they get to see the real you? It is time to redraw the boundaries around you to include those you care about. It may be something as easy as not wearing make up or high heels for a day. Or sharing something that you feel could open you up to criticism. It is time to be brave and know that you can do no wrong as long as you are being true to yourself.
Or “All you need is love”
You can see all the possibilities in front of you but something is stopping you from taking the first step to your new project. It is that pesky parasite Fear. The more you feed him the more friends he calls over. And, no, this one isn’t solved but setting things on fire. Fear only dislikes on thing and that is love. Imagine the thing that you are afraid of, see and feel your fear. Now imagine the same thing but surrounded with love and joy. See yourelf taking that first step surrounded by things you love and soon you will be taking that step in reality.
It seems that there is a trend of fire. It is time to accept that the old ways are no longer working and acceptance of yourself is vital. There is a light a the end of the tunnel and it is a bonfire awaiting the contribution of old beliefs.
The Empty Space, Secrets of the Necronomicon
This is for those of you who are going through a crisis of personal identity. It is time to burn up and get rid of all the things in the past that ‘made you who you are today’. Both the good and the bad. Let go of the past victories, while you can be proud of your accomplishments, there will be more. The big nasty thing that you survived, let that go! Yes, it made you stronger, but that is no reason to let it stay in your space.
The best way to test a past event is to tell someone about it, or just recount it to yourself, and see what emotions you feel. It has been freed from your space if you can recount a traumatic event without feeling the fear, anger, or sadness welling up in you. So, if you do feel those emotions welling up, write out everything you feel. Take your time and write down how you feel about everyone and everything involved. Then comes my favorite part: set it on fire. Don’t forget to forgive yourself.
A special treat! They wanted me to a 3 rune spread.
Nauthiz, Sowelu, Odin
It is time to recognize that the setback and constraints and troubles in your life are your best teachers. It can be tough to hold back and work on yourself instead of going out there and ‘doing something’. The biggest challenge right now is to sit back and take care of yourself, to withdraw a bit. Most importantly, take a hard look at decisions that you have made that caused the situations that you rail against. Everything that you have, you brought into being, the good and the bad.
Now is the time to look directly into your fears and to become comfortable with not knowing the future. Giving up control to the divine is an intense but rewarding experience.